Thank You for being with me through the journey of my life...
Please forgive me if I have unintentionally hurt the feelings of others. Please also do not punish me if I have made the wrong decision in life. Life is really taking its toll on me now and I am not sure if I can handle it with care. This is the time I need You the most. Sometimes, I tend to take rash decisions and then look back thinking if I shouldn't/should have done it. But well who doesn't think that way? Afteral, we all are humans and are bound to make mistakes. Of course I do learn from my mistakes, just so you know. I have struck upon a stumbling block right now and that is my self confidence. Looking back, I have always learnt to trust my instinct and above all myself. However, recently I have been feeling so blue, worrying so much about what is to come before me. Well, this is my honours year and I know I have to work hard. But most of the time I am so distracted with so many things that I can't even name them. I know what I have to do but still I am unable to do it. This is when I start to think if I have made the wrong decision to pursue honours despite all the odds. Honours year ain't that easy at all, this I have to confess. I am just so confused at times to what I should do or just give up here. But I am a persevering type, who gets things done by hook or crook. Again, the "but" comes here coz I feel like I have lost all that motivation in me to work really hard and nail it. God, please give me an answer. I know this is a silly question to be asking you but if you could just give me that motivation to work a little harder, I know I can do it. I have been reading motivational speeches by the Dalai Lama, Shiv Khera and even Will Smith, which did help a little. Somedays, I am like "OK, I can do this". While other times my sleep controls me and I am dozing off to dreamland leaving my job half done. At times, I am not at all in the mood to study. This is the time when I feel like I want to escape all of this and just go some place where I can live my life. But I ask myself, "Isn't doing honours a part of my dream?" Of course it is but when things become really hard, you tend to think twice about your decision. I know I shouldn't be doubting myself but I can't help it really :(
No Sweet without sweat...No gain without Pain....this is so very true....I am awesome...
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