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often times, things keep changing, feelings fade unexpressed, people go unnoticed, but you know of one thing and that is you are still holding on. you don't want to let gossip slip through your lips but at times it just happens auto. by the time you press on the brake, it's too late to take back the words you have spoken. you want to do good but there are moments when you feel bad about "somethings" you do. you get angry at people because you expect them to react the way you want, you want them to treat you like every other person. there's no point in expecting that from someone who's just going to bring down your positive vibe. you just ought to hold still and move on....

an eXcerpt from my Diary

Friday 23 September 2011

Isn’t life amazing? We smile. We cry. We get angry. We experience all the emotional traumas but still life goes on. People who can beat the emotions, they learn to live with it but when emotions control the people, then life comes tumbling down. Life is amazing in a way where people talk good things, bad things and above all gossip. Don’t they have a life to live? Can’t they live someone in peace and let them live their lives as well? Life gets so amazingly complicated sometimes but that’s why we live this life in such an amazing way. We never realize we are living with the terms and conditions and we are bound to abide by them. We are not meant to break them but yes we break them. Why do we have to do this and that when we can do what we want to do?

Why do we even have to care if someone talks bad about us or if someone is talking something bad about someone to us? Why do we even care if someone is wearing a blue tee and if s/he’s wearing the same tomorrow? Why do we even care to bother about others? That’s why life is amazingly beautiful and tragically complicated. Life is so much messed up with the fast pacing world of technology, people are moving fast forward; hunting for opportunities as if it could feed them for a night or so. But once we pounce on the opportunity, yes it does feed you for the rest of your lives. People get messed up sometimes and they get confused and lost but it does go on. Are we supposed to fight the emotions? Will it be a win-win game or will we win over our emotions?

Teaching

There's a dark side and a bright side to teaching. i believe one requires a lot of patience and endurance to be a teacher. there are frustrating moments when you try to make students understand what you teach and they don't seem to get it. there are rewarding moments when students come to you after an exam and say "miss, thank you for being my teacher." or even after their results, "miss i passed, miss i got first..." so on and so forth. i believe the utmost quality in a teacher is to connect with the students, try to put oneself in their shoes and understand their level of grasping things. Teaching by choice, teaching by passion is the best way one will never get sick of teaching...
In this note, i would like to thank my teachers of UA for making the person i am today...

incredibly naughty students that i taught while doing my part time job in UA early
2010

life's a blessing in a way for me. i believe what ever happens, happens for a reason. you may not know that but with time you realise, "yes that is true". i had good times, bad times, easy moments, tough moments, happy memories, sad memories but on goes life. you go with the flow i guess.

As Beautiful as the Autumn...Let no one ever take this kindness from you!

Autumn Beauty

the sky is as clear as ocean blue,
and today has been a great day.
living a positive life.
leading a hopeful attitude.
i stare out of my window.
the grasses aren't lush green anymore.
autumn has fallen in
but along with it brought beauty.
the trees have shed their leaves,
flowers have withered away,
but the beauty of the fallen autumn leaves couldn't challenge the cold i have to bear :)

Irresistible Autumn Beauty

15th May, 2011

As the morning rays,
Penetrate through my window sill,
my eyelids slightly jerk;
am i still dreaming
or have i awaken
from the lovely dreamland.
as i lay cuddled in my warm quilt;
i want to sleep a little more.
but time has taken toll and
i have to rise up.
i hug my teddy and wish him a "Good morning".
"it's yet another wonderful day," i say to myself.

The Best Pal :)

How many times do you get to meet good people in your life? i reckon it would be one in a million but i was lucky enough to have met such a pure person. she's just like an angel filled with compromise, sacrifice, sincerity, punctuality, hard work and above all honesty. i have come across people who pretend superficially to be good just to impress others but in her i have seen some thing like a miracle that distinguishes her from all the people.
yes, she's the best pal i ever met after arriving in Australia. Wish you happiness always Diep :) Always stay a true person like you have been :)

YOU and ME

Dear, I realized today that I could flirt, I could laugh, I could do whatever I want but I could never fall in love again for u  are  still there deep inside my heart. I look back and see that I have never loved someone like I have loved u. I never knew this would happen to me but it did. I will always remember u. I know we have gone our separate ways and there's no looking back but I hope u feel the same like I feel. I still miss u. True love does exist :)

Foot prints for a life time....will always hold a special place in my heart....

Life is like a rainbow...you need a bit of rain and sunshine to make it beautiful :)

Fragile

As i stare blankly into the wet ground from the morning drizzle, i realize how fragile life could be. death is bound to take us someday. today we might have a bitter day but tomorrow may turn out bright. there is never giving up hope instilled in me always telling things will turn out right even though i know the wound will take ages to heal. but that's part of life. we get hurt; people use us, misuse us, make us happy, bring us tears but life must go on. it has to, there is no drooling over thoughts and dwelling into the past which is already gone out of our hands, there is no worrying about the future which is yet to arrive. it is living in the moment as best as one can. it is doing the best one can. it is knowing that one day  it will be worth the fight, one day you will get what you always dreamt of. it is not looking back and feeling depressed but smiling for what you have done. things happen for a reason and God does it only for your own good. the only thing you have to have is BELIEVE, HOPE and DREAM to keep you alive.

LIFE is too short to be unhappy. you just gotta dive deeper and get the real meaning out of it....just go with the flow :)

The Ever Changing Vicious Circle of Life

one problem is just resolved but another jumps in. sometimes you are satisfied but sometimes you are lost. sometimes you are happy but sometimes you feel something missing from your life. Life is just a circle in which things go round, people go round, moments keep changing but all one do is also join this "vicious" circle. one cannot blame anyone because it is bound to be this way.

i had a long conversation with one of my friends and she told me that she had heard from people i have changed. she asked me, "How do you do that?" i just said we get only one life and if we stay the same throughout our entire life, there's no meaning in life, if we don't take risks to learn something, there's no meaning in life. i received a genuine smile. i wonder why people bother so much about other people. that's why i call it "vicious circle of life". there's no pun intended but that's the fact. i am happy that people noticed that in me, i am also happy that i have stopped living the life i am suppose to live, i am happy that i am living my life the way i enjoy it.


IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, GO OUT THERE AND GET IT! DON'T BE SCARED, IT WILL NOT BE THE END OF THE WORLD! 

Welcome Speech

i did smile but i think i forgot to hide my fear. i did try but there was still something lacking. i was nervous but i felt good at the end. i wanted this, i told myself "get done with it" and i did it.

LIFE IS ALL ABOUT FACING IT WITH DETERMINATION, WILL AND THE POSITIVE FEELING THAT YOU CAN DO IT!

LoVe

Sometimes, the hardest part of falling in love is wanting someone you can’t be with. When you are 99% sure you can't be together,but there’s 1% in you that keeps you hanging on.
But your mind can’t agree with your heart for it’s not the right thing because true love is unselfish and does not want to hurt anybody for personal motives. It is to decide rightfully even if it would hurt and wound you.
Though no matter how much you love the person, you just can’t let your feelings be expressed. That no matter what circumstances, you can’t let it mean more than what you want it to.
True love is an acceptance of all is, has been, will be, and will not be.
Sometimes you have to be apart from the people you love,
but that doesn’t make you love them any less.
Sometimes it makes you love them more, even if it hurts….! 

For the love of my Life....i will always miss you...you will always hold a special place in my life :)

Existing

As i sit back and start posting my first blog. i am lost. with exams knocking my door soon, i am afraid as to how i am going to answer the door. with so much workload upon me, i know i still exist in this fragile world. Realised, there is no such thing as forever, friendships don't always remain the same, people change, things change, love turns into despair and i know one day we all are meant to head to our graves. we lose people we love, our dreams get shattered sometimes but still we move on with the light of hope deep within us. we always tell ourselves to be positive even when there's slight chance of getting something done. i tell myself, i will get there someday, if not today, if not tomorrow but someday i will make it. that's how i have learnt to live and survive.
you get hurt, you shed tears behind the curtain, you are in pain and agony but you can't always remain in that desperate position. you have got to live this life to the fullest for there will never be a second life :)

i know i will get there someday....

Blessings for today, tomorrow and always....